I'm Not A Failure!

I received my first acceptance letter to college today. (: I have to say that for the longest time, I was so convinced that I was going to be a failure for the rest of my life. All of my friends had received acceptance letters way before I had even heard back from any college I applied to. I was so worried that I was going to be stuck with nothing but rejection letters, simply because that's the way that I am sometimes. I always think that I'm going to fail or be rejected, simply to make myself feel better if I end up failing. I think it's a lot more depressing to be convinced that everything is going to work out in favor of the person but then it ends up as rejection.

One More, Please?

I'm sure a lot of people can agree with me on this one. My school just gave us a full week off this past week, and I have to say that I am not ready to go back just yet. There is still more sleep to be done, and I definitely want that. I miss waking up at my own pace and actually eating breakfast at my house. I miss staying up late talking with my boyfriend on the phone, not caring about when I need to go to bed, and just falling asleep with him on the phone.
This just makes me even more excited for graduation, and for college. I want to be able to choose classes that start at ten or eleven in the morning. I want to be able to not go to class on Friday. But something tells me that one day I'm going to look back and miss the structure of high school. Or maybe not. I know I'll miss that I'm guaranteed to get in a class. I know that I'll miss the classes that I've really enjoyed. I know I still won't care less about AP Language. That was just a terrible class, just saying.
But let's just look ahead at the future, shall we?

Looking back on 2011 and Hope for the Future.

Happy New Year, everyone! I hope everyone had a great holiday season with their families. This past year has been so eventful for me that I can't even really begin to cover all of it.
So, yes, I have a boyfriend, but I had a boyfriend at the beginning of 2011 too. I just don't think I mentioned him. Haha. ^^;; Well anyway he and I are still together. xD. I call him a douchebag all the time because I'm too much of a romantic idealist. And he actually still sticks around. So he's a keeper. (:
Drama club has been... well, dramatic to say the least. So I'm president of the club this year. (: The plays have gone well. With some drama, but of course nothing goes without drama.
Oh hey. I'm a senior this year. So I already did all my college apps and whatnot, and I took the SAT over the summer. Without studying, I was able to snag a score of 1860. So yay, I'm smart, I guess. ^^;
My youtube account has been mildly active over the past few months as well. I've got the link to it over in the sidebar, so if you're interested, check it out. I do cosplay vlogs and random shit. I'm actually working on a project to make a satirical Hamlet video explaining the meaning of it. I hope to get that posted before I head back to school on January ninth.
Oh hey. Another random topic change. It's three in the morning, I have a tired "high". And no, I'm not on anything. xD It's just me being crazy and lacking sleep. My birthday is February tenth. So I'll be eighteen. And I'll get to have my nose pierced. (: I'm excited about that.
So now I will be heading off to sleep until what, ten in the morning? Something like that.... enjoy your holidays! (:

Racism Is Still Evident?

In the midst of a lovely conversation during AP English Language and Composition class sixth period today, colleges came up as a topic, shockingly. What I heard was very surprising, and I'd like to challenge that: Colleges have a "minority quota" that they must fill.

So wait. Are you telling me that not only do I have to compete with smart people, but I have to racially compete as well? I didn't know that I was able to change the color of my skin so easily. Where can I go to do that, and how much does it cost?

Isn't it ironic how Civil Rights Leaders pledged the words "judge not by the color of their skin but by the content of their character"? So technically, if colleges and universities are accepting people to fill a quota based on race, isn't that racial discrimination? Because I'm white, does that mean it's going to be more difficult to compete with, say, an Arab? We might be at the same intelligence level, but hey, colleges like racial diversity, so bye-bye to me.

I'm not trying to be racist, I'm just pointing out that race should not be a deciding factor when sending out acceptance letters. And anyway, I could be wrong, this is just from word of mouth and I haven't researched it all too much to qualify the information.

What's your opinion on it?